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Topic: I CAN'T THINK!
started by: solid

Posted by solid on Feb. 20 2001,03:45

Before you take your precious opportunity to write up some smart ass reply-

My train of has thought went from 200\% to 5\% gradually.
I procrastinate to the point of not doing anything.
I'm NOT depressed. I feel fine.
My life is pointless, I just sit here and pump myself with cool music and other entertainment.

I think I've lost my real self somewhere.

Solutions? Suggestions? Comments?

Posted by Sithiee on Feb. 20 2001,08:27

its called not caring. i have recently attained this state of enlightenment as well. its nice.

Posted by WillyPete on Feb. 20 2001,10:46

Aren't you the guy who planned to do a 28 hour day or something.

If you are, is it wrong for me to say 'told you so'?
Could that have anything to do with it?

Seriously, we all have those days best described by that memorable quote: "Sometimes I sits and thinks, but most times I just sits."

Posted by fatbitch on Feb. 20 2001,12:21

no solid was not the 28 hour day guy.... i think. think his name started with W fuck what was it....

Posted by pengu1nn on Feb. 20 2001,18:18

quote:
Originally posted by solid:
My train of has thought went from 200\% to 5\% gradually.
I procrastinate to the point of not doing anything.
I'm NOT depressed. I feel fine.
My life is pointless, I just sit here and pump myself with cool music and other entertainment.
I think I've lost my real self somewhere.

i have been that way for about 3-4 years now.
it really really sux major ass. now when i want to do something i sit and try to think of something to do, and usually do nothing at all. i still think alot but i just do act on any of my ideas.

Posted by Vigilante on Feb. 20 2001,18:25

"We don't actually do any of our proposals. We just propose them."

Posted by DeadAnztac on Feb. 20 2001,18:41

double double post

This message has been edited by DeadAnztac on February 21, 2001 at 01:43 PM

Posted by DeadAnztac on Feb. 20 2001,18:41

Double post...

This message has been edited by DeadAnztac on February 21, 2001 at 01:42 PM

Posted by DeadAnztac on Feb. 20 2001,18:41

Ya know, I think I know exactly what you mean, and I think I have a good idea as how to fix it. Basically all you have to realize is that most "enternainment" isn't that entirtaining, if you find yourself watching a show and are bored, realize your bored and think of something that is interesting. For example, I'll be playing a game, and getting all pissed off I stop, think "hey I'm not having fun", then go read a book or something. Now as for doing your work, you have to start thinking of the positive tihnks about doing things. Like you have to write a paper, you think hey! there's a good place to vent my anger! or you have to get some coding done, or you know anything that for some reason in your mind is classified as work, just try to think of something positive, that makes it really easy to do it 'cause your focusing on the positive aspects not the negitive.

...so basically you gotta realize video games and TV aren't always fun (for me they rarely are now, unless I have someone to play) and work isn't always hard or boring. Tell me if what I said made sense

~Anztac

Posted by CatKnight on Feb. 20 2001,18:46

wow nice triple post there anztac. but anyways i agree with you. i was so pissed off at high school for being a hole load of bullshit. i had college fever for 1 and a half years, but that feeling of meaninglessness only went away for about a week, until i realized that most teachers at the freshman level dont give a fuck if you pass or fail. i get my sense of meaning out of science, and that i am contributing to society. but thats just me. you have to find that one thing that works for you. once you do though, you will never (or hardly ever) be depressed.

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Posted by DeadAnztac on Feb. 20 2001,19:07

Hey, at my highschool I recently realized most of my teachers actually do give a damn. It's increadable! At a university tho the professors are mostly there to conduct research, do art, etc and teaching is just something they have to do, so they really don't work towards being a good teachers, and you gotta realize they got a shit load of students to deal with.. so I don't blame them :-\

Posted by Dark Knight Bob on Feb. 20 2001,20:11

i'm at tthe point where i dont care anymor if i fuck up uni. the problem is there's no pressure to do anything. no financial problems (overdraft takes care of that), no pressure to do work (detentions no longer exist). its not that i dont like being pressured in fact i need it i want someof my teachers to have a big go at me and tell me to do the work and not be so laid back. cos at the moment all i do is play FF9, kisten to music and just generally sleep

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Posted by solid on Feb. 20 2001,23:55

Well.. sith hit it bullseye. I guess I really don't have anything to lose no matter what I do.

The only reason I ever cared was because my dad kept forcing me to do my homework, do this, do that- etc.

And it's not exactly the best of feelings either. I have SO many things I SHOULD be doing and I'm NOT doing, but I really don't care. For example, tomorrow's geography homework- I'll probably get at it in the last minuite.

Aside from that- some of you are lucky you're at university, because I'm at high school. At this rate I'll fail to pass high school for sure, and at least you all have your high school diplomas.

And who's that 28 hour guy?

One more thing, I don't really know what drove me to live my childhood years in terms of what to live for either. Probably just because it was more fun and there were less responsibilities.

Posted by Sithiee on Feb. 21 2001,00:14

yeah, i got motivated after my gov teacher started making fun of me, and my mom has switched from nagging to positive reinforcement....

Posted by Spydir Web on Feb. 21 2001,00:43

I've noticed a lot of my old friends, including the 8 voices in my head and my invisible 2 foot tall 3,450,987,450,925,732,409,857,432 year old friend Jimmie, have hit this stage of life. I've been doing it too... I've always been interested in psychology and how the brain works, and from what I can tell it's just chemicals in the brain man. A little before you started just "not giving a damn" (btw - great way to live, you just don't give a damn!

), were you in a very emotional state? Emotions of any kind. Always pissed? Happy 24/7 (and no, help from drugs does not cat CatKnight...)? The feeling or need to be loved?

I think when this stage hits, it's your brain just saying "look, I'm over worked. I'm taking a god damned break, kid" and you're just left with nothing to really do. If my "theories" are correct, then you're right, you're not depressed, it's just your body is so over worked from the excess emotional and physical changes of growing up, your subconscience realizes that you just need to take it easy for a while.

I dunno, that all makes a little sense to me. If you get what I'm saying, cool . If you think that all this is actually a somewhat philosophical and pretty cool psychological thing, please say so, I need the encouragement because lately I've just had no will power

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Posted by solid on Feb. 21 2001,01:58

quote:
Originally posted by Spydir Web:
were you in a very emotional state? Emotions of any kind. Always pissed? Happy 24/7 (and no, help from drugs does not cat CatKnight...)? The feeling or need to be loved?

OH YOU BITCH!
That's almost right on. Since my parents divorce (been about 2 years now), he told me I'd get over it in 5-6 months. Then he said a year. Then I stopped visiting that damn shrink.

But I like this state. I just wish I was the same fast thinker I was before. My average response time to a question like "want something to eat" is "mm.. no." and then 3 secs later "oh food.. ya.. food's good. bring, bring!". I'm just too damned slow now.
Oh ya, I also noticed my charisma dropped too. (not that I had too much of it anyways)

Come to think of it, it was about 6 months after bearing it that I started to switch from normal to this.
I just said to myself one day "What the hell, I've always been the good one. And I'm not getting anything in return. Just more bitching and pressure. Wheres the person that's supposed to do good things to ME?"

Now I've really got an urge to tell you my life story but I don't want anyone to bear that.

BTW- if you're having a willpower problem:
1. You nailed the target. Not dead center but close.
2. Get some friends who support you a lot and get yourself to support them a lot. Then see them for at least 1.5 hours a day. Eventually your confidence and willpower will boost like crazy.

Posted by Sithiee on Feb. 21 2001,08:22

thats pretty accurate, i kinda stopped caring after my best friend stabbed me in the back to go out with the girl he knew i still liked and said he wouldnt go out with until i was ok with it...about a week later, i stopped caring about anything...but i was still kindof angry, as my friend put it "you dont care, but you militantly dont care"..

Posted by solid on Feb. 22 2001,00:49

Well ya.. it's somewhat half and half for me too but I can't find something too interesting.

Right now I'm 0w/\/ at cs like always and started a clan with two of my friends.

And me and my friend are thinking of making some cheap movie that has a lotta funny shit in it.

Posted by Spydir Web on Feb. 22 2001,05:08

my bad, I musta said that "willpower" stuff wrong. It's just that I don't really feel compelled to do much anymore. The lowest grade I'm getting in any class is a 84.5 (C at my school, .5 points below a B), other then a couple web related coding projects I don't have a lot of person projects to work on, and until I get my windows box installed with windows, I won't have much to just waste time on when I'm bored (I'm gonna set it up as a little music production studio... Step down Moby!

I probably should have included this part in that above post, because I thought of it, but I guess I just forgot. If you're in the state of not caring, STAY THERE DAMMIT! Don't let anyone tell you otherwise. it's probably the best way you can be. I would recommend maybe starting a person thing to do such as some goofy program, or maybe becoming pretty good at some video game, just some to waste time on. I've been half and half in this state (I only care for stuff that I feel is interesting, the rest is just bullshit wasting my time), and I've noticed a great improvement in my life. I used to be pissed 24/7, and now I'm pretty happy all the time.

So yeah, enjoy it man. Don't really complain about it to parents or people who do care, cuz they're gonna tell you all this "but there's so much in life to care about!" crap that's so very untrue. Never believe shrinks, most learn everything they know from some teacher in uni. that don't give a damn, which leads to bad info in their tiny little heads.

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