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Forum: The Classroom Topic: sigh started by: Vulu Posted by Vulu on Nov. 07 2001,04:34
If I said I hated Life, would that scare you?It's not that I hate Life - it's that I hate my Life. Everything I do seems so meaningless and empty. The more I think about how pointless our lives are, the more I think about the shitty things I've done in the past and the countless errors I've made. I somehow feel that if I had done things differently I wouldn't be such a quasi-depressed person. I don't know how I got to where I am: I'm not going to college (yet), my family life is a big fucking sham, and I'm not sure who my friends are. And yet, I have a beautiful girlfriend who Loves me, I'm making the moneys I so dearly need, and I'm happy. Well, as happy as I've been in a damn long time. All my Life I've been a mixture of contradicitons, here I am, saying that I hate my Life but that I'm happy. I make no sense sometimes. Perhaps that's why my Life is so damn complicated and exasperating. My mother asks me on a regular basis - usually in a fit of rage - personal questions: what am I doing in Life, what am I doing about college, what am I going to do when I turn 18, etc. And for the last 17 years my answer for any sort of question regarding the future was, "I don't know." Is it not entirely possible that I just don't know? And if I don't know any of these questions, then how do I know if I know who I am? Maybe who I am is really only who I want to be. Are you getting all this? My mind is thinking faster than I can type. And I realize that now I'm really now making sense. So I'm just going to get some sleep. All I know is, I'm happy in some sort of way. And I guess I made up my mind to be that way. Someone I once knew said it best, 'Jazz is a very hard person to understand, he's a mixture of contradictions. But if you have the patience to figure him out, he is a joy to know." ------------------ Posted by Vigilante on Nov. 07 2001,04:36
Love is all you need.John Lennon; smart man. Shot in the back, very sad. Posted by Dark Knight Bob on Nov. 07 2001,08:39
independance day more plot holes and stereotypes than swiss cheese very sad------------------ Posted by whiskey@throttle on Nov. 07 2001,09:40
Have you ever travelled anywhere?If you haven't, think about a few months abroad...it's quite an experience. Very enlightening. And the more exotic, the better.
Posted by TheTaxMan on Nov. 07 2001,11:34
quote: Think of that in terms of music and it means the same thing (I don't know the original context of the conversation, don't yell at me...). Plug in the headphones and zone out for a while, it always helps me. ------------------ quote: This message has been edited by TheTaxMan on November 08, 2001 at 06:34 AM Posted by cr0bar on Nov. 07 2001,15:32
quote: Sounds like a cliché. It ain't. Posted by kuru on Nov. 07 2001,15:39
Love is all you need.And not necessarily love for or love of a person. Love something you do. Do that thing a lot. Be passionate about it. Or you could pick up your shit one day, say goodbye to your girlfriend and move to Belize to dig up dead people. If you hate your life, change things now. You can't start any younger. ------------------ Posted by CatKnight on Nov. 07 2001,15:46
hate can easily be substituted for love, though. you don't need a specific emotion or passion, just plenty of it.
Posted by Wiley on Nov. 07 2001,15:55
quote: Or really good pr0n This message has been edited by Wiley on November 08, 2001 at 10:55 AM Posted by Vulu on Nov. 08 2001,04:00
quote: Paris, Brugge, Amsterdam, Geneva, L.A., Mykonos, Vienna. I don't think that's the problem. 'Love is, is what I got.' This message has been edited by Vulu on November 08, 2001 at 11:15 PM Posted by Vigilante on Nov. 08 2001,04:24
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Right on. I want to go to Mykonos very badly. How was it?
Posted by CatKnight on Nov. 08 2001,04:55
quote: thanks for taking that out of context man, I really appreciate it. *hug* ass
Posted by Vigilante on Nov. 08 2001,04:59
There was no meaningful context.
Posted by Pickle Therapy Lady on Nov. 08 2001,18:27
Vulu, I know how you feel. It's a matter of constantly feeling like you have no direction. You feel lost. Scattered is the only way to describe how you tend to think. Feeling like an idiot for not being able to keep an attention span to make you a useful memeber of society because you bounce from thought to thought. It's depressing as hell but all at once, you're grateful for all the good in your life and when you are taken up with that good in your life, you're happy. When your not taken up with it, you feel lost and sad because nothing else seems to fill that spot in the back of your mind. Your mind doesn't stay on that happy spot. It drifts and stays caught up in the feeling of the moment (the feeling of a lacking grasp on your mind). I hate feeling this way as well. If you stumble across the solution, please share. For the meantime though, just know someone else knows what you feel like and if I find the answer first, I'll share too. This message has been edited by Pickle Therapy Lady on November 09, 2001 at 01:30 PM Posted by incubus on Nov. 08 2001,19:16
Life. Don't talk to me about life. </marvin>------------------ [edit] Me, brain the size of a planet and I had to edit my post. This message has been edited by incubus on November 09, 2001 at 02:17 PM |