I've posted about this friend of mine several times on the forums... hopefully this will be the last time I ever have to mention his name. You know that backrub thingie from way back in Rome. Anyway, without a real reason, he just stopped talking to me 2-3 weeks ago. I wondered, got really nervous and frustrated/aggressive... Today I heard that there've been rumours spread about him and me in school. I emailed him, asking him whether these rumours had anything to do with him not talking to me, and that I'd think it sad if our friendship/acquaintance was destroyed because of rumours.
He just talked to me on ICQ, basically just continuing his usual head game policy... never answering a question directly, being sarcastic, being unlogical to anyone but himself, asking silly questions. The end of the conversation looked like this:
me: "just tell me plain out what you think"
he: "you sure you want that?"
me: "yeah, damnit, yeah. anything's better than this mystery game"
he: "OK, then pay good attention. *disconnect*"
me: "???"
he didn't say anything and disconnected two minutes later.
So much to that. It took me a while to understand what he meant. Now, in retrospective, it gets clear to me... him saying "I've shared X's opinion about you for a couple weeks"... X being a friend of him, and a guy I used to be friends with who suddenly stopped talking to me as well (the two of them sat in class today, looking at me and laughing all the time). HE JUST DOESN'T WANT TO TALK TO ME, OR BE CONNECTED WITH ME IN ANY WAY. I have no idea why. But it is like that.
I have no idea why. I don't know where I went wrong, or if I went wrong? I don't actually care much. I'm glad this mind game is over. Fine by me.
That's in the end all I wanted... I had gotten so insecure and nervous in the end that I'm glad it's over. And to tell the honest truth... attraction point #1 was his body.
So... YAY I get to kick another little fucker outta my life. Luckily before he did any damage to it. School tomorrow will be humiliating though... will it? No. I'm the winner here. 10 years from now he'll wonder what he missed out on. I'll praise God that I didn't make the mistake of that guy.
Nevertheless... I feel like I just need a couple kind words... ya know what it's like...
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LiNeY Croft - Fridge Raider